That's Enough Sitting on the Fence, For the Fear of Breaking Dams
All things shall pass, just ask George Harrison on his 3-cd set released right after The Beatles broke up. I'm coming to you live, last night on 907 East 38th, feet propped up kinda cold, and kinda asleep. It's been a tough posting to put into perspective, I try to pop something out there everyday, but it's been stormy weather.
Life does indeed throw each and every one of us little lessons, and what we take away from them is totally up to us. I make a big deal of everything, I'm proud of this, especially when it pertains to people, because when it all boils down to it, what's more important than cultivating relationships with people who are important to you. When the proverbial shit hits the fan, I don't run from it, I take some time, put it into perspective, and act accordingly on what I think is what's best for me.
Respect yourself, if you can't do that, you can't respect anything else. You have to be true to yourself, and what you believe to be right. If you feel you are compromised too much, chances are this is to be true. If you are hurt, and the other party in question doesn't understand what the big deal is, the decision is obvious, chalk it up as a stalemate, we are all grownups, do what you have to do, and move on.
I know who my friends are, and I'm not going to do any bullshit loyalty tests, whatever will be will be. True I do talk shit about people behind their back (who doesn't?), but I clarify what's import. Yea, so and so is this this and this, but at the end of the day, they are a great person, and that's what always shines thru in context of bashing. For my piece of mind, I'm not repulsive, I don't stink, I respect people, I'm fiercely loyal to my friends, I trust them and respect them, and I foster open and honest communication, and the last thing I would do is sell a friend out to the lowest bidder, assuming worse case scenarios, taking remarks said out of context and in confidence, and getting on the party line to discuss, even if the earth's plates are colliding, or anything other lame ass excuse one can think of at the moment.
There are dangers of having close circles of friends. The climactic series of Friends gone bad has comes to a close, and the dust is settling. But it's not funny, it plays out to be more like a Greek tragedy. You can't just tell someone that Zeus isn't the God of all Gods, and you don't have to sacrifice your first born. Everyone puts themselves in the middle of it all, when there really isn't a middle, it's just a series of events set into motion, and what happens, happens for a reason, you can't avoid it, you have to embrace it and go with it, learn as you go. A situation can be jacked up for the sake of being jacked up, there's an end in itself, and there's no sense in shaking your head and going, 'what just happened here.'
I know in my heart that I'm making the right decision to move on, I acknowledge the signs are there, and I'm listening to them and embracing them. While dwelling on the past, I get pretty upset, miserable in fact, but when I look to the wide open future, my life seems a dream. I am going to do my best in becoming a no limit human being, one that's not bound by anything 'bad' (pretty much talking about my own inputs, processes and outputs), and I'm looking forward to embracing the future. My worldly possessions are in Shiner, and I'm staying with my sister for the next few months. After the PMP certification in June, my life is open. I have no idea where I'll be, I have no idea where I'm going to work, but change is inevitable, I'm not denying the auspicious signs. I find comfort in this, its about me growing as a human being, and not being bound by anything. It's following my heart, and respecting my capacity to make the right decisions for myself.
Yea, the posting is vague, there's a lot been going on in my life, however I don't intend to use this real estate to bash anyone. I'm going to focus my efforts on the future, and I'm going to continue to be high strung and question reality, it's really the biggest strength I have. I figured out the rubix cube when I was a kid, it was hard, but I worked at it and it was solved. I've done what I could with a puzzle that doesn't have all the pieces, and I've come to peace of mind. The pieces add up, and I've come to accept it all.
Maybe time will sort it all out, but in the meantime I leave behind some dear friends, on my own accord. I'm going to make a concerted effort to learn from this lesson life has dealt, and focus on the future, where excitement and possibility lie just beyond the hump.
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Random Quotations --- JFK was a great man, when is another like him going to step to the plate ....
"To state the facts frankly is not to despair the future nor indict the past. The prudent heir takes careful inventory of his legacies and gives a faithful accounting to those whom he owes an obligation of trust."
"I am certain that after the dust of centuries has passed over our cities, we, too, will be remembered not for victories or defeats in battle or in politics, but for our contribution to the human spirit."
"When written in Chinese, the word ‘crisis’ is composed of two characters – one represents danger, and the other represents opportunity."
"The time to repair the roof is when the sun is shining."
"I hope that no American ... will waste his franchise and throw away his vote by voting either for me or against me solely on account of my religious affiliation. It is not relevant."





















































