Wednesday, December 31, 2008

No fire where I lit my spark, I am not afraid of the dark

Seth G says it best, "I don't like New Year's. Faux merriment, excessive drinking, ridiculous resolutions and general malaise. Not to mention Dick Clark."

Life is a journey, expectations change along the way --To whom, for whom, with whom all gets blended in, very important in the crusade of life.

-- Where I'm From (past)

I have a buddy that always asks me about my parents, how I grew up, and the psychoanalysis goes from there. In short, he says there's no way I grew up in rural Texas, and I say why the heck not? On my jog tonight I go past the cemetery where my old man is buried. I think about the memories, growing up under the circumstances of Dad being sick most of mine and his life. It was an opportunity to both give and receive love, a way to come to grips and exorcise bitterness from my life at a young age.

Growing up my expectations were the following (highlights)
  1. that the doc's would reduce the suffering dad had to endure (social pressures didn't bother me one bit)
  2. marry the first girl I fell in love with
  3. experience life after high school, go to college on my shitty SAT score, get a computer job
The rest was the great wide open --

-- The journey I've chosen (present)

Traveling, heartbreak, reading and imagination set me on the course of discovery. I can easily decipher what's an end, and what's a means to an end. My 'bucket list' so to speak is literally out of this world.

Current expectations
  1. common decency to people i know and meet, and especially between people who are supposed to love each other
  2. obtain a deep understanding of the connectedness of the world, social-political-geographical-religious-financial
  3. give further definition to my faith, and keep it alive
Future expectations and more to end state

The reoccurring sentiment best described by the presidents of the usa (not really presidents, but the band...) --" old man on the back porch, old man on the back porch, old man on the back porch and that, old man is me."......"happy with no teeth, happy here in hibernation" -- sure that plays into it, but i'll surely be workin' till my days are done, hopefully more on what i want.

Long term exceptions (contradictory as portrayed in bullet points, but clear in my head)
  1. to be loved
  2. to experience true freedom (from myself, from others, from society)
Yea, write it all down will I -- I think about it all (the whole why we are here, and what do we need to do), as life changes and feel that it's helped me put most things into perspective, and for the most part, has made things like sifting through technology a breeze.

drawn to the flame

everyone throws out bullet points for the years end, what came to focus from 2008.

bullet points --\\ gotta look past them, everyone reads the bullet points, not too many read the long boring paragraphs and accept the cold hard realities of their respective fields

aggrigator v producer --\\ anyone can aggrigate, less can produce content worth aggrigating -- integration of it all is the only thing that gives you a competitive advantage these days

learn mechanics--\\ know the tools out there, and figure out what purpose to use them for. just b/c a swiss army knife has 60 blades doesn't mean you have to use them all -- if you use the screwdriver to try to cut something....nothing good comes of that, etc

ideas / and execution--\\ ideas are a dime a dozen if you don't execute. if you think someone else is going to execute your brilliant idea, think again -- i've come to understand if you want your endeavor to take off, you have to babysit it from start to finish

stock market vs fantasy football-- \\ the stock market is easier to predict than fantasy football.

aggressively persue goals w/ eye on prize-- \\ find something that needs to be done within your scope, agressively execute -- accept the diligence needed for the task at hand

intuition and courage-- \\ is personal, is key, is the make or break--- you can read books, blogs, tweets, wikis and countless other sources on information, you gotta mold them together, add value, and retrofit for your specific task, and execute.

finally --\\ you're not going to outdo what's already been done

Monday, December 29, 2008

It's the End of the World as We Know it, And I Feel Fine

The 'stock-off' between my brother-in-law and I begins.

End-Of-Us-Dominance Portfolio

Stock -- Price -- Shares -- Value

Petroleo Brasileiro SA (ADR) PBR

PetroChina Company Limited (ADR) PTR

Sasol Limited (ADR) SSL

Terra Industries Inc.

Agrium Inc. (USA)

Silver Wheaton Corp. (USA)

Goldcorp Inc. (USA)

Bucyrus International, Inc.

Total $2000

Contrarian US will Recover Portfolio Mutual Fund

Stock -- Price -- Shares -- Value

Royce Financial Services Svc RYFSX

ICON Financial ICFSX

Total $2000

Sunday, December 28, 2008

The dimming of the light makes the picture clearer, It's just an old photograph, There's nothing to hide, when the world was just beginning

Brothas, sistas, and motha.

Kale and I, this little dude is AWESOME.

Grant, Ayden and the gang on a mission

Have yourself a very vulcan Christmas.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Did you see the stylish kids in the riot We were shovelled up like muck Set the night on fire Wombles bleed truncheons and shields

Ever since Gladwell turned me on to the word 'maven', I've combed the internet pages to find these special people and bask in their radiance.

One attribute I've always thought 'handy,' the power to influence. Bon Jovi does it, you can hear tons of people singing along to Livin' on a Prayer. He's got the help of guitar hero and shelf space at wal mart.

You have to go out of your way to find and understand Pete Doherty and truly grasp why a mass follows him. That's the gang, generally speaking I want to go have a beer with.

Pure influence, when your song gets sung back to you. This isn't a bad pickup either.

This city's so cold & old Forever rain or snow I'd really love to come and go

The season and year for fog.

Leaves finally have left the trees.

The banana tree doesn't like the cold weather.

The festive neighbor

The most decorated building in town.

Joy to the world

The bustling downtown.

Nicely done :)

A random hunk of lights in the park

Friday, December 26, 2008

It's on Amerika's Tortured Brow, That Mickey Mouse has grown up a cow

I'd say there are changes coming in 2009, first coming with saving, saving for a better day, saving to spend later. Interesting and unique opportunities are all over the place, and I'm going to labor to capitalize.

Makes me think of a line of thought in Crashproof, in which the author talks about western 'information technology service sector' being overstretched. Generalizations about manufacturing jobs being lost and about how the world isn't awe'd by the American consumer also shine through.

For my future as an wanna be entrepreneur, what this guy probably will say in this book...If your idea says something like 'well get 'them' to hook into 'this'' , you're screwed. Cute is saturated. If it can't be done in your living room with your best buddy, you're playing a finite game and marching with the herd.

The money will stay on the sideline for some time, but will be there to scale a solid idea that can be monetized.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

I worried and stalled every night of my life. Better safe than making the party

Time to recollect for the year on what I've learned. A buddy and I talk, generally speaking he's an idealist, I'm a pragmatist, but rigid in my own thoughts. For a great part of my life, I've found struggle in how pragmatism and idealism can meet in the middle.

Abstract a bit further, and think, how can ANY idea, any thought, word, deed, feeling, etc find common ground. What's the basis for commonality? Sure there's the general themes of mutual respect, understanding and empathy, but that doesn't strike at the heart of the matter.

To explore further, my personal story of discovery, of course lost in translate, comes from weekly dialogue in philosophy, my buddy, a Plato person, myself, a Kant person -- two that 'kinda go together, but kinda not'. I do some digging for quotations, find a middle ground that assures me that I (at least for my own well being), have found the root of common decency, and the tie that binds reasonable people together, and provides a solid foundation to build upon.

'Always recognize that human individuals are ends, and do not use them as means to your end.' -- Kant

Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle. -- Plato

I've discovered that despite what contempt I have on the surface of 'this place' (anything that deals with the mass of humanity, their consumptions, their evils, my perception of what's pathetic), it doesn't manifest in friendships I've established over the years, and generally speaking I have a great disposition when it comes to the challenges in life, and all of its curiosities. Even though my phone doesn't ring on Saturday night, I have great friends everywhere I look, which confirms a mutual genuine interest.

Similarly, I feel as if I've got great capacity for intimacy, I feel strongly (as my fortune cookie suggests) a beautiful, smart and loving person will be coming into your life. All the intangibles will align, someday, somehow, sometime.

It all starts with the realization that most human life is precious (even though there are too damn many of us), and I want to dive into that feeling. This means lowering my guard, this means throwing out the bad mental habits of self defeatism.

Humans super complex and wonderful, I'm going to live by that one, and continue bridging the gap between cognition and manipulation.

Acting on your best behaviour Turn your back on mother nature Everybody wants to rule the world

Next year marks the first year in my professional career that I'm collectively producing more than I'm consuming.

In a civilization that seems to have forgotten how to produce, we see shifting -- entertainment, litigation, copyright and cool web 2.0 stuff.

Tears for fears was right, everyone has an agenda in this world. Few go the extra mile to help their agendas along. This means finishing up something before surfing the web, and it means doing the hard stuff first.

We can lie to ourselves and say sub prime is the cause, but more consumption than production is root cause, that's the super bubble that will break. Someone said we have the 20% work rule, and that's what's got us into this mess, and suggests that we employ the 120% rule to get out of it.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Huhuh! I was in the right! Yes, absolutely in the right! I certainly was in the right!

The last credit card debt I'll have in my past life -- 2009 might be bad for the economy, but it'll be great year for me.

Been to hell and back financially, got the t-shirt.

That doesn't mean I won't buy a round of beer for 15 Brits at 10 bucks a pint, just means I'm not going to put it on the credit card :)

Pure easy listening, settle down On the pillow soft when theyve all gone home

Stringing things together as life goes on.

Gladwell has two good phrases to ponder in his new book, 1, the war on mitigated speech, and 2, glorious misconceptions.

Two new years resolutions --

An all out assault on mitigated speech
-- Slapping a time and date saying you need this on 'x' date, instead of the 'umm, if you're not too busy, do this by then', etc, etc -- It's the next step forward in people taking things seriously.

A breakdown of glorious misconceptions. Continue to spend 20 minutes on something someone else gives up on in 30 seconds.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Hilary went to the catholic church because she wanted information The vicar, or whatever, took her to one side and gave her confirmation

Soliciting thoughts on what to write about tonight, you know I'd take the hard one. --

1 -- how our almost former president is agile, like a cat?


2 -- The Duality of Man

Duality, of course I'm thinking Yin and Yang, but then got into 'Unification Thought,' very fascinating. It's the ultimate in finite thought, and its left my head spinning for the evening.

Unification thought is meant to serve as a philosophical basis for social, political, economic, religious, and cultural activities. It also goes on to say....Unification thought encompasses theories on God, human nature, nature, ethics, art, education, knowledge, logic, method, and history. God and man are mutually interdependent.

It frames life in a more spiritual way. From what it tells me, there are forces that can tell you how to think, but fewer forces to explain how you feel.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

giving into the blue sky and to the gold eye of what is possible, giving one in a million, you be the engine of what is possible

Time for the top ten of 2008, most are repeats and oldies, some sentimental to the heart, but the top 10 surly does change when you move out of a music city. Your musical knowledge and 'in the know' seems to shrivel on the vine.

With that being said, its been a great year for the soul, and the soundtrack reflects. It also reflects someone that's getting old.

10 - Conor Oberest / Conor Oberest and Racounters - Consolers Of The Lonely -- Number 10 is a tie between these two great. Conor is a great songwriter that surrounds himself with some of my favorites, too deep to be considered whiny emo. The Racounters are there b/c of the mere precense of Mr Benson, the Jack White singing style gets to me every now and then, but its a great jam. This year used it as a pump Roland and Mike D up for the Marathon car drive.

9 -- Belle and Sebastian -- BBC Sessions -- Even if they'd fart on a snare and record, they'd be in the top 10. An album that shows there ain't much studio magic to their perfection.

8 -- John Denver's Greatest Hits -- What memories are made of. Mike P and D and I rolling throught the mountains of Colorado with Mr Rocky Mountain high hippie on repeat. We did see it raining fire in the sky on Mike P's wedding trip. The soundtrack is memorable if you take something like this, roll it on repeat, get annoyed, get past annoyance, and sing at the top of your lungs. I'm there, just got to get the others in the car to that point.

7 -- Fleet Foxes -- The only mainstream hipster band on the list. I like them because of the reverb, the lyrics, the nice little fills.

6 -- Old 97's Blame it On Gravity -- Rhett and the Boys put out consistently good stuff. Rollin with the top down in Shiner, acting cool, blaring these tunes. Not to mention, even people who aren't up on music can hop in the car and say, hey, this sounds good. It's approachable and hip.

5 -- Dan Wilson -- Free Life -- Album that talks about love, love, love, and spins it every which way. In my line of work we deal with analytics and OLAP cubes, well Dan can spin that cube any and every which way in this album, as it pertains to love. He traded in his gyrating hips of Semisonic for a solo career, and producer of great albums like the recent Dixie Chicks.

4 -- Ben Folds -- Way too Normal --He has the crowd pleaser song with Regina Spector, love it, and also......

He's the geek that puts the mistery, debate, and complexity behind in defining gender roles. This little dude brings a huge set of nuts to the debate, representin' for the intellectual, representin' for the non-athletic type.

The first line of the song says it all...

(The answer you seek my son only poses more questions.
Ask many women why relationship has failed.
Each woman offer unique reason for demise.
One woman may say, "man could not commit."
Or, "man is douche, and is now free to make love to himself instead."
Another woman may say, "man had changed,"
or even, "man no longer satisfactory lover."
But my son, ask many men same question all over the world, "why has relationship failed?" Each man, each time, will give same, simple answer.) ---- The B*tch went nuts..

3 -- Billy Bragg -- Mr Love and Justice -- Billy brings me a contemporary outlook on life throught the lense of an active Brit. Uncanny that I agree with most he preaches, he's a positive vibe in a world full of trouble.

2 -- David Byrne -- Everything that Happens -- Wow, caught on to this one late, but Byrne works wonders with the album, his vocals are amazing. The man is superhuman.

1 -- Josh Ritter -- The Historical Conquests of Josh Ritter -- Number one goes to the album that was in my car CD player for the first 6 months of the year. Driving to work, I listened to the Temptation of Adam at least 5,000 times. The music is emotionally anomous despite deep lyrics and insite.

The cars in the churchyard are shiny and German Distinctly at odds with the theme of the sermon

I'm sure going to miss the view from where I geek out when its not there.

Mike P comes to town, I get offered beer in 4 different places on the evening and the total number drank....0. Last time I ran a 5k, I drank 6 rum and cokes the night before. Talk about a difference of performance.

Gotta keep the head warm in cold Texas weather.

And then there's Chesney, she's damn funny. Mike P and I invaded her and Jason's dinner by the fireplace.

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

Through Your State of Grace, Lift me Up, Walk into the Fire With Me

The astronomical clock in Prague has always has created an epiphany when gazing at the sun and moon, and walk of the apostles at the same glance. Not to mention the clock seems to sit in the middle of 'old' and 'new' city.

Similar, here I sit right smack dab in the middle of a crossroad in life, to my left is a lifestyle that's got me where I am today (for better or for worse), and to my right is a vision of where I want to be. Feels like I'm easing into one and out the other.

To my left, I'm one to harp on words like domestication and contentment, to my right I'm discovering new words like grace and compassion. I'm intrigued by the collective feelings of sorrow and happiness rather than the individual, I know I have a lot to learn.

Proper judgment means more than anything.

Monday, December 08, 2008

So go play with your piano Write a mediocre song Out the shell of mediocrity And pretend there’s nothing wrong

Tonight is one of those nights everything sorta hurts, a night of limbo. During whiteboard session with Mike P on ACROBAT>COM, I asked 'what should I blog about,' the answer, 'an epiphany', your latest one.

Had to really look the word up to see what it meant. The definition, 'A sudden revelation of truth inspired by a seemingly trivial incident.' Guess those things are good, and I think you can condition yourself to have more and more of them.

Here's where I have them, and what they pertain to --
  • While sitting in my cube, I have to get up, walk around, figure out how to disseminate, diffuse, and catalog next steps moving forward
  • Sitting in pubs with friends of like minds, who cultivate ideas, no trolls
  • Visual queues, looking at something, man made or nature, going 'damn, there's something really significant about that'
  • Being vigorously hard on the heart and mind, body and soul, constant probing as long as I can withstand -- I always figure there will be time for rest one day, or not

What I do with them --
  • Frame it context, act.
  • Push the envelope
  • Weave into your existence
  • Share / Communicate, the most important part
Epiphany's are out there, observance is key.

Sunday, December 07, 2008

And At Night, You Go to Bed and Dream that the Would Would Be Like You Want it, You got the Courage Why Not Flaunt It.

A word about hyper consumerism --

Going to a store, going to a burrito joint, going to a mall, you could argue that we've reached a gilded age for the middle class. People for the most part can afford to do almost anything, buy anything, use anything, go anywhere.

Something in me says what's morally right in seeing the mass consumerism is to seek sustainable living. I'm proud when I can pluck a lemon from the tree in the backyard and use it, I'm proud when I see a counter full of potatoes, tomatoes, onions and carrots.

I'm not proud when I see 100 plastic cups disseminated at Starbucks every hour, the packaging it takes to deliver certain goods to market, or the general passiveness of people, or people who are oblivious to the effects of all of this.

Lots of hearts and minds need to be changed, we have two choices, become more aware and conscious, or mother nature will rightfully burp us off this planet.

White Kitchen Walls with a Thousand Windows, You Turn On Winston in the Den.

Thinking about it today, my family balances me out, thank y'all so much for that. Blogging about / thinking about the family is therapeutic.

No chestnuts roasting on an open file, but we have some nice stockings hung by the chimney with care, and we also have 'Bedford Falls' up there, the famous places from the movie.

Back yard retrofitted with a sheet as a screen, projecting a movie while we basked in the hot tub.

Angle is everything when shooting pictures, here' the backyard pool looks a bit like puff daddy's stuff.. um maybe not, how am I supposed to judge until I get invited to one of puffy's parties.

The fam says its low maintenance, so no pool boys come over to clean.

Finally the Bailey Building and Loan. A queen bee I used to live with said I remind her of George Bailey, I think it's one of the best compliments I ever received, in context.

I'm up in the air, can't hear a sound You're making a noise on the ground

Often I neglect the fact that tennis has had a major impact on my life during tender years. My buddies and I would often play 7 hours a day on the weekends in 100 degree Texas heat. Lots was learned during this time, and now that I have the ability to think, there are several terms that transcend tennis.

Ace -- Making that point that transcends all points. Hitting the ball so your adversaries can't even touch it.

The Double Fault -- The worst thing ever. Means that you don't even get the ball in play to see what happens, you screw it up yourself, and don't even give you opponent a chance to react.

Volley / Net Play -- Picking the ball off early will all for better placement, often 'winners' and gives your opponent very little time to react.

The Serve -- Getting the mechanics down for the serve is a feat in itself. It's collecting yourself, then exploding all effort for a purpose

My travels have brought me to Roland Garros in Paris, Flushing Meadows in New York, and Wimbledon in London -- The last of the Grand Slams to hit is the Australia Open.

Favorite matches in my 'career'

-- Regional Final 1995 -- Playing doubles, the 'audience' would clap when I double faulted b/c my serve was wicked, especially for a short dude. Opponent gets stung by a bee, I'm thinking 'hell yea', we're going to win by default, but alas.

-- Team Tennis 1992 -- Playing the #1 slot for Shiner, I'd get demolished almost every match. One match during the warmup, wearing my prim and proper white attire, I hit a mud slick chasing down a ball, fall straight on my back, play the rest of the match covered in mud.

-- Cuero Summer Tennis 1993 -- Hot and tired, ready to concede the match when this punk pops me in the leg with an overhead smash when he had the entire court open. I mustered up the energy to come back and pulverize this bunghole.

-- First match ever -- Sportin my 'LA Gear' tennis shoes, I'm stressed like hell b/c I never played anything one on one organized, and I wanted to win. The set count 2-2 and then the rains came. 'Ronnie' and I never got to finish that match.

-- Regional Opener Round 1 -- Playing a Brazilian exchange student the day of dad's funeral. I got pummeled, but I showed up, that's what pops would have wanted.

-- Clay Court Hilton Head Island -- My bud David (aka John McEnroe temper) throws his racket over the fence in anger, not able to adjust to the slow play of the clay.

Lots to be learned in it all, last night's match shows that we're all slowing down, using more angles and less power. We'll see how it goes at age 50.

Thursday, December 04, 2008

what was i supposed to do, standin there lookin at you, a lonely voice far from home

Purpose --

Driving home in the middle of massive traffic, I stopped to think, what's the purpose? So many beings on the merry way, all with missions, all with thoughts, attitudes, personalities, challanges. It all seems to be a commodity.

I've been called a deconstructionist on a few occassions in life, seems to be getting that way. It's always more, more, more, more tv's, more money, more shows, more travel, more *insert vice, superficial, or other sentiment here* --

Certainly I don't agree with Freud when he says all you have to do in life is die. But certainly the modern day temptations don't offer a lot in terms of peace.

I know a lot of smart people that say they're searching for 'purpose,' but that begs the question, are they that smart? Purpose can be in all of life's simple things, I guess expectation is what screws it up, the incessant desire to want more and more and more, from everything and everyone.

Somewhere in there respect for your fellow man is thrown out the window.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

If the sun can shine You'll be just fine Look into your mind Where you're free

My quick list of what makes a good leader, and what they need. BOTH are needed for SUCCESS.

Leadership attributes --
  1. The ability to EXECUTE against all odds
  2. The ability to ARTICULATE a VISION
  3. The ability to INTEGRATE egos
  4. The ability to create a sense of URGENCY
What leaders need --
  1. RESOURCES, mainly human
  2. TRUST -- in these resources
  3. For difficult endeavors, ASSETS

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Broken beaten down Cant even get around Without an old man cane I fall and hit the ground

A night at the best pub in town, and I drink a coffee. It's the start of something special in my life, I can feel it.

Manuelabor, Lacination, and Sophia come for a visit. After a visit from these folks, my battery is charged. If they were near, I know I'd NEVER get tired of hanging out with them, the latter may not hold true :)

What I get from hanging out with these wonderful folks

-- A voice of reason and an ear to listen (even though I think Lacinator thinks I'm crazy) --

-- I get asked the hard questions, don't get judged on the answers, conversation flows so freely it's wonderful

-- General all around good laughs, fun, excitment, and good spirit.

Friday, November 28, 2008

So tell me what the hell is normal and who the hell is sane? And why the hell care anyway?

Last few years there's always been a countdown of the greatest albums of the year. A precursor to that this year, for creatures of habit like myself is to highlight what I will name my favorite band of my generation, The Divine Comedy.

Mr. Hannon has clarified so much for me in the last 10 years, he's helped me over some humps, and continues to put things into perspective. The more I listen, the more I find, the more I grow.

The top ten tunes from the DC shot from the hip with the word that represents accordingly.

10 -- Songs of Love -- Unity -- It tells me that the masses are the masses and that if you stay away from the masses you are still OK. There is that 'group' of introspective people you're able to tap, you have that common bond with someone, a 'band of brothers' so to speak, the meek. Why I like it musically -- battling harpsichord and guitar, 3 party harmonies.

9 -- Gin Soaked Boy -- Balance -- 'I'm the sadness in the joy, I'm the gin in the gin-soaked boy,' a barrage of opposites are put together with a shot out to Jeff Goldblum at the conclusion. The song says you can be 'this' in a world of 'that', and you're better off for it. Reminds me of a quote from a Steve Segal movie 'what does it take to change the essence of man.'

8 -- Don't Look Down -- Spiritual -- Says to employ doubt and pessimism, yet give the nod to the gods, and when you least expect it, the angles will come down and give you the ride of your life. In the meantime, do what you need to do, do it with great courage, conviction and energy, and the rest works itself out in the wash.

7 -- Perfect Lovesong -- Love -- It's nothing that's assuming, its kind hearted, funny, and implies no pressure, confusion or complication. Damn, its sooo the place I want to be, a place of peace, motivation and inspiration, a place that's consistent and understanding, a place of rest, a place of solace, a place of mutual admiration.

6 -- Bad Ambassador -- Humor -- A type of humor that only comes from a self actualized human being who states the humor in who they are, where they are going, the circles they would like to 'roll in', but yet understand and articulate limitations in these thoughts and ideas, lives in a lofty place in mind, body and spirit, dreams good dreams. Sentiments that say, I can work well with an audience, any audience, but inside the bubble, its magic.

5 -- The Beauty Regime -- Fulfillment -- A song that piece by piece dissects the bullshit aspects of celebrity culture, while building up how special you are in the same breath. It's easy to 'get', the message that says live your life for you.

4 -- Tonight We Fly -- Inspiration -- Thinking of this makes me think of Alladin on his little magic carpet, flying over houses, looking at the human element, seeing the searches and battles raging on. It inspires me to think 'we're all in this together,' and that awareness, then empathy are keys to human understanding.

3 -- A Lady of A Certain Age -- Sadness -- Sadness in excess, sadness in too much individual thought. A song that follows the life and times of a woman who becomes more and more distressed. You learn a lot from staring into that abyss, its great to do it for a bit, then say, damn, it sucks down there, and that's NOT where I want to be. A song that says, 'figure out the human element in relation to things that are important and true, or you will die a lonesome depressing death.'

2 -- Charmed Life -- Hope -- A song that articulates the difficulty of taking the high road, and the inherent benefits of doing so. Layers of happiness, layers of beacons, layers of life's little lessons, both practical and hidden in meaning.

1 -- Mastermind -- Freedom -- The deepest song I've heard in the last 10 years. The message ranges from conformity, tenacity, introspection, temptation, realization, reassurance, threats and opportunity. Once you make it through line by line, listen after listen, layer on layer, you know a hell of a lot more about yourself.

When you lift up the rug, internalize what you think and feel, what do you see under it? 10 years of The Divine Comedy has cleared the dirt and dead bodies.

Weightless as I close my eyes (Ohhhhh-aah) The ceiling opens in disguise

Can't tell you how much I HATE running, however I know there is something special about it and the people who can do it. I WILL get there, turning this, a great weakness into a great strength.

Running has to be a harmony between body and mind. When I run, thoughts splinter in all directions, chaos reigns supreme in my mind, which in turn plays havoc on my running.

To do this, changing habits is inevitable, including --

1 -- Binge drinking has got to go
2 -- healthier eating
3 -- strengthening of my core

and hopefully these things along with running will ebb me towards relaxation and a healthy soul.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Sunday, November 23, 2008

What can you do but let them talk And make your way down the block

This video turned out so bad yet so good --

with the birds i share this lonely view

was at the launch of twitter back in the day, but never considered myself an 'early adopter' of anything, but the time has come --

to refine my thoughts, thinking and communication through twitter -- till i get a rhythm, it'll be what i ate for dinner, etc etc, but eventually cross pollination of great thoughts and ideas may occur.

i want to follow you, follow me, let's figure out the communication model together --

My twits

there go the words I meant to say There go the games I wanted to play

In this corner, the geeky aspect of the family, downing recession ales like they are going out of business.

And in this corner, a long haired Mike D and Sarah B in a swanky dress.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Seasons change, mad things rearrange But it all stays the same like the love Doctor Strange

Good friends always put it into perspective for me -- One says, 'Online dating is like going to the $7.99 all you can eat buffet,' then it can be further dove into in terms of the general chicken, seafood, won ton soup, etc, etc --

When you hit a buffet, if you let it happen, the feeling of guilt and gluttony finds its way into your thoughts. Similar to the smorgasbord of dating profiles on the site of your choice, where after choosing to meet a black haired blue eyed liberal who was born on a Gemini cusp that likes traveling, walks on the beach, and sushi, it returns 7 hits in your zip code, --- similar to the 7 things you head for at the buffet.

Tonight, it was chicken, shrimp, the meat on the stick, some dumplings, the jalapeno mystery chicken, a piece of cheesecake, and lets not forget the beloved pudding.

It's a slippery slope those buffets, the 7.99 turns into 6.99, then 5.99 and so on....

Something tells me that organic is the way to go in both circumstances.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

the tide that left and never came back is on my mind tonight

Lots of song lyrics hovering in around during my bean heartburn infested jog this evening --

There's literal and non-literal interpretation in all words, thoughts and deeds, for years I've spouted out words, but the undertone has always been in the song lyric in the title of the post. If I'm quoting Eliot Smith, I'm usually not having a good day, despite what I write, Rhett Miller, cynical and playful, The Shins or Belle and Sebastian, I'm thinking about a collective of thought too hard to describe or understand.

Non-Literal -- an example, Murder or a Heart Attack, buy the Old 97's. If you take a gander at the lyrics below, a non-literal interpretation would be, boy and girl have relationship, one person leaves without warning or due to wandering heart, the other person rolls the dice by always keeping alive the possibility that the person who has left will come back.

\\We assign meaning to things and all of sudden those things have power over us.

Check out lyrics, and the literal interpretation follows, as per a story told at a live show.

And the hole
In the screen is barely big enough for you
And not near enough for me to go

And the whole damn complicated
Situation could've been
Avoided if I'd only shut the window

And I may be leavin' myself open
To a murder or a heart attack
But I'm leavin' the back door open
'Til you come back, 'til you come back


Literal Interpretation - Rhett's livin' with his girl in LA. He forgets to shut the window, their cat jumps out and disappears, he's now scared that his girl is gonna murder him or she's going to have a heart attack when she finds out, so he looks for the cat relentlessly (no pun intended) and finally decides on leaving the door open till the cat comes home.

Like the lyrics in I'M A CUCKOO, people take to signs, but I think the reality is people assign value to signals, and that signal only has the value you give it.

I always attempted to bridge my literal and non-literal ideas for the sake of whole person progress, it's taken a toll on the soul. The brain is full of interesting nuance that's beneficial to explore.

Why do people do it? Framing information (thought, speech, word, and action) in different contexts is interpretative (good connotation), slippery (bad connotation), often you have to grab the few words from the wordsmith who lives in the area between literal and non-literal, come to a conclusion and run with it.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Greek gods are communing Beneath the doric arch And they talk how small we humans are

Tonight's thought, people don't know what they want, but they know what they DON'T WANT. There's a lot in this sentiment, but had writers block, then Malkmus showed me the way on my crusty old winamp .

You can frame the the conversation in terms of gathering business requirements, as you do something for boss that says, 'I don't know what I want,' you give them something, and say, I don't like it, try again.

Shepherds herd in real time
Sheep are barley-grazing on a field of green
Vines ripen to find
Troy will prevail
Trojan curfews prevail

Modern day courting / mating psychology thoughts guided by a Malkmus stanza.

Shepherds herd in real time

There's a lot of sheep in the world, that do what they're told, have no vision or hindsight, even more folks that have vision and hindsight but are lost in the fray. So Mr Hannon's, lyric Pale, pubescent beasts, rings true, weather you're in a bar of coffee house. We are victims of the worlds fashions, the more you mix it up the more you're galvanized in that behavior.

Sheep are barley-grazing on a field of green

There's a lot of 'grazing' going on out there, but what about true terms of endearment?. It probably looks more like cows eating on brown Texas grass than a European meadow. It's trial and error out there, it really shouldn't be that hard and scientific. Find a nice path of green grass, get fat on mental stability and goodness.

Vines ripen to find

What does one do as a higher priority than the quest? They ripen themselves, self enrichment and the like. I've learned to skip cocktail night more often than not to do things I know other people aren't, and what I've found, it makes you more 'mysterious' to the cocktail crowd. I figure I'm ripening on the vine ready to fight a few distinct predetermined battles.

Troy will prevail

Walls have a purpose, you let them down for non-internalized intentions and 'booty', then Troy doesn't prevail.

Trojan curfews prevail

Lots of ways to spin that one, but if you don't open to the wolf at the door, your kingdom will be safe.

In all the Adam Sandler, well the puppy was a dog rambling, there's a message to plan, then act.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Tomorrow may come Tomorrow may never come again Can't you hear Jamie cryin? She's runnin' with the devil

“I've seen a lot of strange stuff, but I've never seen anything to make me believe there's one all-powerful force controlling everything. There's no mystical energy field controls my destiny.”

Han Solo said that, I like to think I favor him in life. Many times I enter a tribe, be it a fancy meal, a hipster alt-rock band / occasion, meeting of the minds, or just a general clique of artists, country boys or geeks.

If the group is serious, or serious doing its own thing, I instinctively sway the latter, and think, you're taking this way too seriously, or you're taking yourself or you situation way too seriously.

See Han thought the force was some crazy mystic voodoo, while the force was there, he acknowledged 'the force' wasn't a golden arrow for any situation. He saw all the good things from a variety of different planets, he had a bada$$ looking spacecraft, he had some great one liners that cut to the chase, all while being accepted and a part of the confines of a group. He had no 'special' power, but he had...

-- the ability not to panic in tough situations
-- the ability to stick it out when the going got tough
-- he was the man who knew the man
-- he knew how to fix stuff, and didn't mind getting his hands dirty
-- had no alliances to anyone, but knew right from wrong

Knowing when to stand firm, knowing which battle to pick, and knowing when to dip, duck and dive in a life is essential.

Needless to say, Han didn't sit back and color.

The railway ticket states the destination but it doesn't mean That we will show

Rolando, Mike D and Jenny run the half marathon this morning, the first annual one in downtown San Antonio, 30,000 people show. At the end of it all, the man from Kenya did the 26 miles just a tad before our valiant here's did the half, but I'm proud of the guys.

Waking up the 30 degrees, the snowflake by the temperature in the Jetta, I'm thinking, damn poor folks, however, it turned out to be an extremely beautiful day.

The ATT center, situated to herd 30,000 people into charter buses, school buses, you name it.

The before picture, I could tell everyone was hyped.

The after picture, everyone was in great spirits, they wanted to have some beers, and plan the soak-body-in-ice-water.

Thanks goodness Mark was there and Casey made the trip up to support the gang. We went to Shoney's and ate all you can eat breakfast while our protagonists ran the race, which literally made me sick to my stomach, for bad food, and all for the sake of feeling left behind. I'm turning lumpy, we can't have this.

So what DO I leave behind, this stuff, bacon, sausage, french toast, and don't forget the CHICKEN FINGERS on the buffet. The gang has penciled in the marathon in July 2009, running the whole thing, I vowed to do the half, and I start preparing this week, and I've decided to find a running group.

I HATE RUNNING WITH A PASSION, THE THOUGHT OF A TREADMILL MAKES ME SICK, but as some wise dudes say, make your greatest weakness your greatest strength.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

I dragged you up the stairs And I told you to fly You were flapping your arms You started to cry

Eddie Vedder once lamented 'O O O O I'm Still Alive,' after staying up 3 days then going for a surf. Living on the fringes some people call it, its where all the action happens, and the closer you can stay to that the more eventful your life is, or at least that's what you think.

There are times when you're a walking zombie, when night and day blurs together, when thoughts run unbridled, unfiltered and somewhat coherent. I'd imagine like peyote without peyote.

What are the fringes of conventional life? Are there fringes? Or is it something you have to search for?

Times like these, I'm waiting for the 'Knock Knock Robert, The Matrix has you....'

Home- will infect what ever you do We're Home- comes to life from outa the blue

The social divide is alive and well more than ever these days.

There are divides in family, divides in what role the male and female should play, divides in ethnicity (Barack Obama isn't 'black enough', etc). There are divides in education levels, workers with unions and without, red vs. blue politics.

So what happens to when things get 'too big to fail?,' and there is an abundance of everything? You have greed, corruption, apathy, and complacent souls -- all bad, and can happen with excessive government or excessive capitalism.

How is the individual empowered in this day and age, other than collaboration amongst peers? How does the individual effect change in a world with no accountability? What does the modern day rebellion look like? Scary....

What does this mean in terms of the psychology of the 'cool kid' and what it makes people strive for? Why does the divide have to be prom queen or nerd, why is everything so dramatic, and why do people fall for it? -- Life is full of subtle irony, but not the stuff we're force feed because 'we' like it. Hence what does it make us 'long for', consequently 'settle for?'

I'm feeling kind of radioactive But I'll make it to the church on time

Pictures from O Montreal, Mt Royal was not as tall as I expected --

Where did you go when things went wrong for you, when the knives came out for you

Perks for having friends overseas, you learn about bands like The Bluetones

Love the guitar effect, and of course the na, na, na, na, na's at the conclusion of the tune.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Get Nostalgic Bout' the Last Ten Years Before the Last Ten Years have Passed

The last six month I've been devoting my brain cells to the hopes, perils and opportunities that exist with Mother nature, trying to really get a sense of what 'she' feels and the win win win's that exist all around conservation, awareness and respect. First understand, then empathize.

First, Hot Flat and Crowded, takes us on a geopolitical look at what's going on around the world. It articulates how we're funding both sides of the war on terror when we buy from Saudi and other countries who 'dont like us.' It puts into perspective the world 'coming online' and what that means for our natural resources. I like the concept of Duke Energy's 'smart black box,' a device that brokers energy consumption in and out, and has stats for all different ways you want to spin them. One point, how the military cools their huts in Iraq, through solar fitted 'accommodations' has tons of merit -- show's that throwing money at a problem helps. Another important point, a double sided battle must be waged to combat the predicaments our planet has to overcome, one, a nationalistic grass roots movement to see who's cooler than how, and a points system established to judge. Also, the manhattan project times 10. a lead in into 'The First Billion is the Hardest' by Texas oilman Boone Pickens. One of his 'boonisms' is 'action leads to action,' and in short, what I have gleamed from the book, goverment has create an energy market with policies, hedges, and regulations, ensure they stay around for a long time, and let free enterprise fill that vacume / market and quit flip-flopping based on political ideologies. It's not going to be quick, its not going to be sexy, its not going to be easy.

Boone's bettin' on natural gas, and sad today that he's postponing his plans. While oil prices fluctuate, the downcycle of oil prices means less demand on clean gas. I know there's more to it, I'm looking into it, but if I was a bettin' man, these renewable resources and trading in their futures looks like somewhere to dig in. Don't think so, just go to Bejing, from what I'm told.

Last but certainly not least, The World Without Us, a look into the metaphysical means of mother nature to self correct. The book takes you on an emotional rollercoaster ride which shows how long human infrastructure, man made items, and the 'way we changed the world' would last without us being in the drivers seat. High points I can recall off the top of my head...Europe would 'heal' quick due to geography and weather patterns, NYC would have interesting consequences (the subways would turn to rivers) and when the trash finally erodes, it would take the roaches with it, The Panama canal wouldn't last long, Mt Rushmore, situated in a very fault averse / erosion averse location would last 7.2 million years, migration patterns of animals would change, etc, etc.

It's an exciting and sad ride all at the same time. I'm still trying to get a grip on what it all means, but it's 'deep'.


Friedman and Boone would probably both concur with what Friedman stated... that we're in a 'green party' and what we need is revolution, and the follow quote was shared.

“A revolution is not a dinner party, or writing an essay, or painting a picture, or doing embroidery; it cannot be so refined, so leisurely and gentle, so temperate, kind, courteous, restrained and magnanimous. A revolution is an insurrection, an act of violence by which one class overthrows another.” -- Mao Zedong

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Pretend the dove from above is a dragon and your feet are on fire

Thinking tonight -- Is it better to sell out a stadium, or to sell out a nice theater, and all the variations.

A band becomes successful by reaching the masses, or winning American Idol or what have you. Soon they are on mainstream channels of communication, next thing you know they are singing their national anthem at a large sports event, have contracts with Puma, and lets not forget the pyro.

Band sells out any 100 year old theater, 1/10th the size, fans have a 'sophistication' perhaps, or maybe the the performer has become a commodity, a has been, but either way there's an allure to the theater performer.

Granted what sells out a stadium is popularity, which is a lead in to how it relates to metaphors for life in general.

There is no popularity in a conventional trade, it's not sexy, it's not going to sell out stadiums. However, you do have a sphere of influence the more 'successful' you become. Would you rather be rich, or rather be right, do you want to 'cash in' or stay true to yourself and your trade. I used to think 'be true' and all that, but in so many ways that's a statement dismissive of hard work. Often individual don't want to invest the intellectual capital to get to the point where they can 'sell out,' so why toil with the question.

I'm working hard to get to the point where I can 'sell out.' Cuban talks about how it doesn't suck being rich, and I'd have to agree with him. I often ask people, would you rather be rich, or would you rather be right. The answers vary, and the way the question is framed is always intriguing. Some say 'I'd rather be right with myself than be rich, if that's what you mean.' -- I've always thought, 'I'm always going to be right with myself, no question about that,' -- Others say, 'well i know I'm not going to be rich ever, so I just want to be right'- as it pertains to a difference of opinion.

I'd rather be 'rich' at the sacrifice of my opinion or stance on business and technology, and I'm going to choose the vessel I think is going to get me there. Once there, I can be like Spiderman, 'With great power comes great responsibility', that's what's philanthropic, fun, challenging, inspiring.

Sunday, November 09, 2008

With your sheets like metal and your belt like lace, And your deck of cards missing the jack and the ace

I've always equated life to the card game, especially finding that special someone or something. The idea has always been if you demand the best, you will get the best. My 'me blog' helps me internalize thoughts and feelings.

Two pairs, full house, straight, flush -- I think the main thing to do is achieve consistency in knowing when to hold em' and when to fold em'. There's plenty country boys out there that have a 45,000 dollar truck in front of a trailer house, hence full house on the truck, high card on the house. Lots of times I fold, I'm looking for the high stakes hands, while doing that I find the high stakes players. Poker is still poker, regardless of if you're playing with a bunch of smucks or you're playing with innovators in the field.

I know a lot of people who 'have a system' as it pertains to 'the game,' -- I.e., if you have these cards, you do this, if you have these, you do this. Although these individuals are successful, I can't comply with the ideology. Someone once told Wal-Mart as they were entering their online prescience, you're not going to out Amazon -- hence Wal-Mart didn't play a heavy hand. Same thing with fly by the seat of their pants entrepreneurs, the question always becomes end state -- doing it for fun, fine, doing it for exposure, cool, doing it to make money -- think about how many twitter knockoffs there are, is it that the heavy hand you want to play?

I've been thinking about 'the bubble I'm in' and framing thoughts in this way. As I sit here tonight, I realize its more of a time management thing, and an opportunity cost thing. There are activities that will enhance my future, some that have no impact, and there are some that have a negative impact on my future. My entire 20's, minus the travel, there were a lot of activities I partook in that were a negative impact in my life, and right now my growing pain is trying to squeeze these out.

As your human plate tectonics shift, I've found that you can internalize conclusions, plant seeds and see what grows, live life with expectations but patience.

Well, it's time to celebrate your birthday, it happens every year, We'll eat a lot of broccoli and drink a lot of beer

Benny turns 70, Doug turns 50 -- Time to whip out the yard bird and footballs. Over 100 people here for the momentous occasion. The house is so big, it's a workout just going to the other room.

What does some of the 'younger' generation of the family look like? Carey, Corey, Bob and Josh, oral surgeon in Los Angeles, person who can fix anything, technocrat, and fireman respectively, a diverse group.

This was a great gift idea, brought the crowd to a stir with laughter.

In the garage, Corey beating up on me -- Certainly this is a changing of the guard. I used to manhandle these fellas, now I'm just worried about my back and bones.

Ben's TBird, a sweet little ride.

Finally, Jr and Collin, solving the worlds problems :)

Friday, October 31, 2008

I fetched and I carried, I watched and I learned, And slowly but surely I rose through the firm

These quotations have been DEEPLY embedded into my brain from hours on end of Civilizaiton.

Or, the text version
Oh Farmers, pray that your summers be wet and your winters clear. - Virgil

Blessed shall be the fruit of thy cattle, the increase of thy kine, and the flocks of thy sheep. - The Bible Deut 28:4

Do not throw the Arrow which will return against you. - Kurdish Proverb

It is entirely seemly for a young man killed in battle to lie mangled by the bronze spear. In his death, all things appear fair. - Homer

Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day. Teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime. - Lao Tzu

If you speak the truth, have a foot in the stirrup.- Turkish Proverb

If you chase two rabbits, you will lose them both. - Native American Saying

It is from their foes, not with friends, that cities learn the lesson of building high walls. -Aristophanes

Meditation brings wisdom, lack of meditation leaves ignorance. Know well what leads you forward and what holds you back. - The Buddha

The man who moves a mountain beings by carrying small stones. - Confucius

I am the Lord thy God. Thou shalt have no other gods before Me. - The Bible, Exodus

Nature herself has imprinted on the minds of all the idea of God. - Cicero

Not at all similar are the race of the immortal gods and the race of men who walk upon the earth. - Homer

Hath not the potter power over the clay, to make one vessel unto honor, and another unto dishonor? - The Bible, Romans

The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make His face to shine upon you and be gracious to you; the Lord lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace. – The Bible, Numbers

You can’t direct the wind, but you can adjust your sails. - Unknown

Put your shoulder to the wheel. - Aesop

True glory consists in doing what deserves to be written; in writing what deserves to be read. - Pliny the Elder

Words have the power both to destroy and heal. When words are both true and kind, they can change our world. - The Buddha

For everything there is a season and a time for every purpose under heaven. - Ecclesiastes

To bring about the rule of righteousness in the land, so that the strong should not harm the weak. - Hammurabi’s Code; Prologue

The wisest men follow their own direction. - Euripides

And on the pedestal these words appear: “My name is Ozymandias, king of kings: Look on my works, ye Mighty, and despair!” Nothing beside remains. - Percy Bysshe Shelley

Everything is worth what its purchaser will pay for it. - Publius Syrus

All the world’s a stage, And all the men and women merely players. They have their exits and their entrances; And one man in his time plays many parts. - William Shakespeare

You should hammer your iron when it is glowing hot. - Publius Syrus

Some books are to be tasted, others to be swallowed, and some to be chewed and digested. - Sir Francis Bacon

If in other sciences we should arrive at certainty without doubt and truth without error, it behooves us to place the foundations of knowledge in mathematics. - Roger Bacon.

And them that take the sword shall perish by the sword. - The Bible, Matthew

A multitude of rulers is not a good thing. Let there be one ruler, one king. - Herodotus

Banking establishments are more dangerous than standing armies. - Thomas Jefferson

The bureaucracy is expanding to meet the needs of the expanding bureaucracy. - Unknown

I am the State. - Louis XIV

A designer knows he has achieved perfection not when there is nothing left to add, but when there is nothing left to take away. - Antoine de Saint-Expury

I will to my lord be true and faithful, and love all which he loves and shun all which he shuns. - Anglo Saxon Oath of Fealty

People of the same trade seldom meet together, even for merriment and diversion, but the conservation ends in a conspiracy against the public. - Adam Smith

A god from the machine - Menander

If music be the food of love, play on. - William Shakespeare

One doesn’t discover new lands without losing sight of the shore. - Andre Gide

I cannot live without books. - Thomas Jefferson

I have gained this by philosophy: that I do without being commanded what others do only from fear of the law. - Aristotle

Two cities have been formed by two loves: the earthly by the love of self; the heavenly by the love of God. - St Augustine

Astronomy compels the soul to look upwards and lead us from this world to another. - Plato

Chemistry means the difference between poverty and starvation and abundant life. - Robert Brent

No free man shall be taken, imprisoned, or in any other way destroyed, except by the lawful judgement of his peers. - The Magna Carta

Corporation, n. An ingenious device for obtaining individual profit without individual responsibility. - Ambrose Bierce

It has been said that democracy is the worst kind of Government except all the others that have been tried. - Winston Churchill

Compound interest is the most powerful force in the universe. - Albert Einstein

There is no wealth like knowledge, no poverty like ignorance. - Ali ibn Abi-Talib

You can get of what you want with a kind of word and a gun than you can with just a kind word. - Al Capone

Any society that will give up a little liberty to gain a little security will deserve neither and lose both. - Benjamin Franklin

Victorious warriors win first and then go to war, while defeated warriors go to war first and then seek to win. - Sun-Tzu

A man does not have himself killed for a half-pence a day or for petty distinction. You must speak to the soul to electrify him. - Napoleon Bonaparte

What gunpowder did for war, the printing press has done to for the mind. Wendell Phillips

The whole is more than the sum of its parts. - Aristotle

Political power grows out of the barrel of a gun. - Mao Zedong

Artillery adds dignity to what would otherwise be a vulgar brawl. - Frederick the

People can have the Model T in any color - so long as it’s black. - Henry Ford
It is not the strongest of the species that survive, but the one most responsive to change. -Charles Darwin

Everything in life is somewhere else, and you get there in a car. - E.B. White
When I give food to the poor, they call me a saint. When I ask why the poor have no food, they call me a communist. - Dom Helder Camara

We will make electricty so cheap that only the rich will burn candles. - Thomas Edison

The great masses of the people … will more easily fall victims to a big lie than to a small one. - Adolf Hitler

If the radiance of a thousand suns were to burst at once into the sky, that would be like the splendor of the Mighty One … I am become death, the Shatterer of Worlds. - J Robert Oppenheimer, quoting “The Bhagavad Gita.”

There is one rule for the industrialist and that is: Make the best quality of goods possible at the lowest cost possible, paying the highest wages possible. - Henry Ford
As to diseases make a habit to two things - to help, or at least, to do no harm. - Hippocrates

To every action there is always opposed an equal reaction. - Issac Newton

I fooled you, I fooled you, I got pig iron, I got pig iron, I got all pig iron. - Lonnie Donegan, “Rock Island Line.”

I do not feel obliged that the same God who has endowed us with sense, religion, and intellect has intended us to forgo their use. - Galileo Galilei

You would make a ship sail against the winds and currents by lighting a bon-fire under her deck? I have no time for such nonsense. Napoleon, on Robert Fulton’s Steamship

Before that steam drill shall beat me down, I’ll die with my hammer in my hand. - From John Henry, the Steel-Driving Man

Never trust a computer you can’t throw out the window. - Steve Wozniak

We do not inherit the earth from our ancestors, we borrow from our children. - Native American Song

There is a single light of science, and to brighten it anywhere is to brighten it everywhere. - Issac Asimov

For once you have tasted flight you will walk the earth with your eyes turned skywards, for there you have been and there you will long to return. - Leonardo Da Vinci

Any sufficiently advanced technology is indistingiushable from magic. - Arthur C. Clarke

Soon it will be a sin for parents to have a child which carries the heavy burden of genetic disease. - Bob Edwards

The only thing worse than to be talked about is not being talked about. - Oscar Wilde

I want to say just one word to you, Just one word: plastics. - Calder Willingham, The Graduate

Then one fine mornin’ she puts on a New York station. You know her life was saved by Rock n’ Roll. - The Velvet Underground, “Rock and Roll”

Tell me what you eat, and I will tell you what you are. - Anthelme Brillat-Savarin (Iron Chef Quote)

The real problem is not whether machines think, but whether men do. - B.F. Skinner

The Earth is the cradle of the mind, but one cannot eternally live in a cradle. - Konstantin E. Tsiolkovsky

Beep … beep … beep … beep … - Sputnik I

The future will be better tomorrow. - Dan Quayle

Philosophy -- is a walk on the slippery rocks, Religion is a light in the fog

Seth Godin talks about Dips, I've been thinking about humps --

There are humps we always come across in life, and we make concious efforts to get over the humps, or let them control us -- Two things happen when we don't try to excel 1) we become complacent, or 2) We know exactly what we are doing wrong, and feel like the puppy who sh*t in the corner.

Things I've overcome in my life --

To get energy you have to give energy -- I've had my days of being a couch potato, but I've forced myself to get up, exercise, take the elevator, walk to the store, go on a bike ride, read on the go, push my body to do things I thought it never could do.

Financial Independence -- Lived a life of excess through my 20's, In the future, in times where cash is king, I will be able to cash in -- The time wasn't pretty, but the bleeding has almost stopped. It took a lot of reading, studying, self improvement.

Timidness -- Curiosity now reigns supreme. Out of the Shiner starting blocks and on to Europe, first time I was wimpy and scared, this soon turned into excitement, now it's excitement with a coat of 'look at all these people getting herded on the plane,' can't we work something out better than this?

I used to be swayed / intimidated by titles, positions, people, etc. Now I feel like when I'm in the same room with someone, I'm entitled to an opinion, I'll ask the tough questions and certainly feel out the 'what's in it for me perspective'.

Things I've yet to overcome --

The widget that will take my career to the next level -- All it takes is a small but good idea that plays to the hearts and minds of the populous, at a mere 5 bucks a month.

The whole person perspective -- I'm exceeding some areas, I'm failing miserably in others

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Heard about Houston? Heard about Detroit? Heard about Pittsburgh, PA?

Lawrence says it best:

Lawrenceo89 has made a comment on David Byrne Toronto 10/29/2008 Massey Hall - 78:
I've got to say, this wasn't just one of the best concerts I've seen, the audience was great too. We went absolutely nuts after every single song! It was fantastic, a night that comes by Once in a Lifetime. Thanks for posting!

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

You Turn it off but then a still small voice comes in blazing from some vast horizon

Listening to Josh Ritter for me is listening to an individual who's transcended the existential debate. 14 years of perfect attendance in church and religious doctrine won't wash Jesus out of my soul, and it doesn't seem to be washing away from Ritter either.

What I've come to understand is an arrangement between pragmatism and mysticism, and have come to a happy acceptance that these two entities will be playing tug-o-war with my soul till I'm vapor.

Last night, snow / rain / and cacti in the window from a pub.

and the second city stage --

Conflicting Themes - Often times, for life we choose one theme and go with it, from a 'user interface' perspective, it looks something like this. You click on the choice you want, you hit ok, then you roll with it. But what if you like a little of each of them? For instance below, what if I like parts of 'reflector' and parts of 'plastic'?

It looks like this -- Hackin' hackin' hackin' the brain, turning it into something you want it to look like -- It's certainly harder and more tedious than picking the defacto choices.

What are the benefits?
  1. Life is all about brand, the more authoritative you are in your brand, the better off everything you touch will be
  2. Mental Exercise -- Being able to articulate an answer better than others
  3. Doing the 'hard stuff' makes you a better person
  4. The ability to take all the themes and piece them together helps serve as a better integrator of thoughts and ideas.
Where does it all lead? The whole know thyself is such a power phrase, and if you master that, and know where you want to go, I don't think there's anything within reason that can't be accomplished.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Every day I recognise, What's deceased and what's alive, But don't repeat what I just said, Until boulders turn to lead

So many references to The Matrix, have it be your job, family, friends, life -- How many Neo's are there actually in the world? I suppose people pay attention more than I give them credit for, but when you roll around in a big city, you can't help be being consumed by the mass populous.

Additionally, mass transit lends itself to a greater psychological need to customize your wardrobe. The neatness up north is watching matching hats and matching scarfs. Little do I pay attention to these accessories as a country boy from the south, but I'm finding its a personality staple here, and a ten minute people watching session reveals the importance.

Also, seeing chunks of people remind me of your personal groups (i.e. your pub buddies, your work buddies, religious buddies, and your buddies you can say anything to) -- What makes these groups fall apart, and what is the binding agents that keeps groups together as personalities and human nature evolves. I'd love to know the bond that keeps these groups together, for as I've had so many groups that come and go, although safe in heart and mind, things change, people change.

I suppose reasonable minds vary on how engaged you are in group norms, and what groups you participate in.

Eighteen academy chairs, Doling out the garland to five, Celebrity minds, they're humbly taken by surprise

Eating Mexican food in Canada, CHECK. I've always found it interesting that folks up north where its cold generally speaking don't eat spicy dishes, yet in the south, pore on the Tabasco, pile on the peppers.

The Trampoline Hall Lectures, A brilliant mix of speakers, one music hipster, one that spoke of trash, and one that talked about a failed yet successful poet, sincerity was the common denominator in it all.

Downtown near my favorite hot dog vendor is some mystery meat love graffiti.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Listen to the band, they're playing just for me, Listen to the people paying just for me

Train tracks -- picture doesn't do it justice --

The CN tower has a 'glass bottom' that'll scare the bejesus out of you if you let it.

Panoramic view (you), look I'll make it all manageable

Highest observation deck in the world -- it certainly was higher than anything I've ever seen -- even though it doesn't look so menacing.

Great views from the top, a nod from the Gods cleared the weather for just enough time for me to snap some pictures.